I wish she was still alive. I really miss her and I wished she was still here so I can have someone to look up to. It’s almost been 9 years without her&it’s still hard. I need her so I can run to her whenever I have a problem or when I need someone to talk to. I miss her so fucking much. I miss&love her so much right now. Sometimes when I’m walking alone at night, I get scared and I tell her to watch over me so I won’t get hurt. I want her here to watch me grow up, I want her to be at my wedding and to be able to watch my future kids to grow up. I want my mom to be here.
oh damnn those pics of you at the dinner look soo hott. did you hightlight your hair? and how did you do your makeup? looks really nice
yeahhh i bleached the underpart of my bangs&the two sides.
i actually put eye shadow on today.
&i was messing around with it becos i never knew how to apply it!
but i guess i did it right this time (:
I wouldn’t have opened my mouth to bitch at you in the first place. If I didn’t care I would have left you do whatever you want. If I didn’t care then I wouldn’t have cried in most of the fights we had. If I didn’t care I would’ve jst let you go that easily. If I didn’t care I would have stopped caring for you. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t have called you up when I needed someone the most. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t wonder how your family is doing because I hella loved them. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t be wasting my time still wondering how things could’ve been. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t still have your picture up on my wall along with the others I love. &If I did care, I wouldn’t have let you go in the first place.
You wanna know why girls don't wanna start a conversation first either by calling, texting or IM-ing with the guy that she likes? It's because she doesn't wanna seem too desperate. She's afraid that if she starts the conversation first every single time, she might lose what she had or almost had with that guy.. so that's why she always just wait 'til the guy talks to her first.. It's safer that way.